The beeping alarm rings in my head as I realize it IS actually morning! 5:45 am, I rush into the bathroom throwing on the minimum amount of makeup that will make me look decent. Then when I'm about to start in on my crazy morning hair, I hear it!!! A little sleepy squeal, then another, and another. I go slowly open the door to the nursery...and THERE SHE IS!!! My whole life right there in that crib with a huge smile on her face! I sing "Good morning, good morning, good morning my Love." Her gorgeous little 9-month old face lights up; I've forgotten about makeup, hair, & everything else flying around in my mind. All that matters is that huge hug & cuddle I get as I pick her up out of her crib!....Then I see the clock & reality sinks in! I HAVE TO GO TO WORK! I work at a Doctors office in town. Now don't get me wrong, considering I have to work I have the ideal job, but a job is a job & it makes me a working mom!
Let me go back a little bit in time....
My heart ached for a baby after my miscarriage about 3 years ago. Right afterward we decided to not go back on birth control & try to get pregnant again right away. Being naïve, I figured I'd be expecting in a few months of trying, but the months turned into years! We tried everything from pills to procedures. But to make a long but amazing story short (I may have to share more in the future) I humbled myself & on Christmas Eve 2011 I peaked at the millionth pregnancy test I'd taken & saw the 2 pink lines I had always wanted to see!! I WAS pregnant! Then after an amazing, joyful, & enjoyable pregnancy & delivery I had my perfect baby girl! My dream had come true, and not only was motherhood everything I'd imagined it was MUCH more! A love I know only comes from heaven!
What I hadn't imagined was how hard it'd be to go back to work! When I was pregnant I thought no big deal I'll go back to work & have family watch the baby, but as my 12 week maternity leave went by like a blink, I wasn't ready to go back & now 6 months later everyday I have to leave her, I'm still not ready!
So here I am living such a blessed life, but with too many roles; employee, mother, wife, house keeper, family chef, laundry mat, crafter, & my baby's personal photographer...
& I'm DESPERATE to put the most important things first, Mother & Wife!
This is my journey to achieve that! It may seem impossible to me now but I know if I have faith, dedication, & PASSION I can make it possible!
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